I think I'm hated by people I don't even know. It's cool, actually. It's funny because they judge me just by my person and how I tend to act in public when I'm in a good mood, which happens a lot, many people do that sometimes I mean... I admit I have done that, but it was just because I knew someone who acted exactly like them pretty much and I found him to be a jerk, but hey! Like I said, everyone at some point does so, but others do it more and others make it more obvious.




People seem to hate the fact that I act like me instead of some wannabe who fits in with all the clones of the world. They're just jealous that they don't have the balls enough to show that there is better in life than to just follow the stream. Hell! Go upstream I say! Try swimming up that 100 foot waterfall.



I was at the mall today and I saw one of my friends that I hadn't seen in FOREVER!! And I glomped her because that's what I usually do to any of my friends just because it is fun to do.... :)



Well when I did this I noticed as one person walked by they glared at me, rolled their eyes, and walked faster in a huff. I say PFF! Fuck you and your "normal" ness!





Why do people judge? I know, I know that's life. That's what happens in the big world, people are judged and thrown aside like a faulty toy but really, keep the judging in court for hell's sake! I do sometimes find it entertaining to be judged by people just to know how clueless and dumb they are but there are certain points where it gets hard.




Take this for example,





My cousin's grandmother (she used to be mine but it was by marriage and well there was divorce involved) she judges me AND my cousin, her OWN GRANDDAUGHTER!




I was at their house for a couple weeks over the summer, I had a necklace with a skull on it. Now I try to take the skulls off when I go down there because they are Jehovah Witnesses and I respect that and plus I don't want to risk never seeing my cousin again, but anyway back to the necklace....




I was wearing it because I feel naked without bracelets or necklaces and her grandmother saw the skull. The words that came out of her mouth were "Why on earth are you wearing a skull?!? Do you want the demons to come and take you away or something?!?" and this links to a previous thing from about one year before this.... it was before I cut back on the skulls and stuff while down there....




I had stayed there for about a week and the clothes I had taken with me were mostly black.... pretty much all of the shirts had skulls on them... and I had a sketchbook full of "ungodly" drawings. They all sucked but on with the story.




Well she was good and didn't say anything the whole week I was there but after I went home, about a week and a half later I got a call from my cousin. She said that her mom and grandmother are trying to make it so we can't see each other anymore. I asked why and she told me it was because of the clothes I was wearing and the drawings I was... well... drawing. Her grandmother was basically saying that the skulls and everything make me a bad role model.




How is that?




And also for her judging her own granddaughter, well my cousin told me about this one, I wasn't there to experience it but if I was I would have said things that would not settle well with her....




One time she had to go out and clean the stalls for her horses and ride and stuff like that...... and she had to quickly put some different clothes on because she needed to be out there like THEN! What she ended up putting on was a black shirt and black pants.




So she went out to do her work and her grandmother saw her, looked her up and down and said "go back inside and change your clothes! You look like a jackass!"





That woman pisses me off! For anyone to say anything like that to my cousin! I try to be good when I'm around that woman but she always says things that should just be left in her tiny little pea brain.






So why judgment? Why stereotypes? Why.... anything? If anyone has a problem with anything that anyone else wears, or how people act (depending on how they're acting, if it's happy and hyper stuff it's okay to a certain stand but if it's like a total jerk-off personality I would probably say SOMETHING) if they have a problem they should either say nothing at all, or at least approach it nicely instead of calling them a jackass for wearing all black, or making it obvious that "demons" will feast on their souls if they have a skull necklace on.





Now, no offense to anyone who are really religious and would take offense to this, I don't really believe in god or anything.... but from all the preaching lectures I've gotten from mom and a few other people, a question rises from all the judgment as well..... isn't god supposed to be the only one to judge? I mean.... well..... I hope you know what I mean.....