Okay... this issue has been going on for a while and I'm just now really ranting about it sooooo... here it is... it's random but it will get my mind off of it for a while.



( here it is )

I like my husband's scruffy :D and the one down south.... teddy bear is cute :D

Pff! NO! If you became a zombie you would be able to go around grunting and eating people's brains without others questioning you, they would either be doing the same or running away from you in fear! Well, yeah you're slow and pretty much retarded as a zombie but think of this: would you rather be the zombie biting people and turning other people into zombies or would you like to be the victim?



ALSO! Being killed by a zombie is WAY better than being killed by a murderer. With a zombie you would be able to come back to life... sort of. If you get killed by a murderer then well... you never come back to life. :D




Now that's what I call F-U-N FUN! ^^

so far today sucks.


i dont know all week last week mat and i have been arguing a lot. and over the weekend and this morning we had a bit of an argument. im being a total bitch i know it and i wish i could just learn to not take everything so seriously and cry over every little fucking detail!!



this morning i lost a really important paper that i have been working very hard on the past few weeks and i really have to get it finished. but i guess im just going to give up on it because everything has been going wrong anyway.




this year i was supposed to stay caught up with my work, i am, but im still missing some things and this paper is a big part of my grade which stupidly enough i dont keep track of.



this morning i've been treating mat like shit so i just want to curl up somewhere and just shut up for a while. i shouldnt even talk to anybody im just going to be a bitch anyway...

http://artpad.art.com/artpad/painter/



you can make pretty pictures and then watch them get painted after. :D

the most disgusting thing i have ever eaten... i have to say is tofu. its not that taste though its the texture. it makes me want to throw up in someone's lap.

my holiday would be cheesecake day. i would celebrate by eating all different kinds of cheesecake until i am ready to explode. :D

I got to go to the ER last night.



I got really sick and I was throwing up so much that my arms started tingling and going numb.  It sucked 'cause they had to stick me with a couple needles. They took three tubes of my blood and I had to have an IV. I was there until like 1:30 in the morning. Left from the house to go there at like 10:30-11 so I wasn't there for too long.


When I first vomited last night for a little while I had two black eyes. Like I broke my nose or something. It was weird. And I strained a muscle in my jaw. O.o


Mat called me like right after and if he didn't call and tell me to wake my mom up I probably would be worse off than I am now.


The two good things about last night, one, Mat called right on time, two, the nurse and the doctor were quite good looking. hehe


Well... I'm still feeling a little icky.... getting kinda sick to my stomach again. I probably should go to bed or something.







night all

I'm having difficulties breathing.



I've had such a shitty day.



I just want to die right now....

Yeah! I'm fucking suspended! -is pissed-



Yesterday I went to Mat's house after school. I rode the bus home with him of course. His bus driver is a deuche bag, he's pissed me off enough already and yesterday he made Mat sit in the front of the bus and me sit in the back of the bus.



Well I was already pissed for one, you know that, but that set me off even more. On the ride home Mat and I were screaming back and forth across the bus talking to each other, and with a couple of my friends when they were getting off I would scream "bye" repeatedly, and very loudly.



Finally it came to our stop, I got off the bus turned around and yelled "HEY! JIM!" and I flipped him off when he looked at me.



Let's see.... it was off school property.... off school grounds.... and after school hours.... the handbook says that if it's on school property, on school grounds, etc. I shouldn't get in trouble for it.



WELL GUESS WHAT! I'M FUCKING SUSPENDED FOR IT! And I'm SURE if it was anyone else who did it... they would have gotten off SCOTT FREE!!!




FUCK TWINFIELD! You know.... if It wasn't for Mat and some of my good friends at school, I probably would have dropped out by now. At least out of Twinfield!




I fucking hate Twinfield. Owen Bradly is a fucking asshole and I hope he suffers and dies a terrible death.



STOP FUCKING TARGETING ME!!!!

I'd be sent to Jupiter and I would bring my boyfriend, the internet, and my sketchbook.... and of course some food and water which is really necessary.

I seriously am not cool, and I don't care.





You know why?






Because I'm proud to be me... it's who I am. If I wanted to be someone else..... what would be the point of living? Because that's all I'm ever going to be.




But shit, I'm not complaining. I'd much rather be myself than any other fucking person. I am me, just me, I am myself through and through and if anyone has any problem with it, or are "scared" of me for it....





what the hell is your problem?



If you don't like me, you don't have to come near me. If you don't like me, you don't have to talk to me. If you don't like me..... I don't care.

aahhh... lol you dont want to know the details.

I will replace every swear with the word flabby.




Well Mat and I have a flabby detention today because Owen is a mother flabby assflab (oops)




Supposedly we were doing flabby PDA flabby during school last flabby week, so I'm flabby pissed.






Oh well better get it flabby over with without a right, or else I'll flabby go flabby insane.









flabby you

uhh.... sourdough bread...... mayonaise.... mustard..... some thick slices of cheese. put that in a pan on the stove on about 4 or 5...... flip until maybe a dark golden brown color.... if the cheese isnt melted all the way put it in the microwave for a few seconds.....



i call it grill-ed cheese

hahahahahahaha your problem now by mindless self indulgence. :) if you know me you have to deal with me^^

six months ago today Mat asked me out. :) we're going to go to applebee's for dinner tonight and he's going to stay at my house all weekend, we're going to spend so much time together and im so excited.





^^ i've been looking forward to this the past couple of months.

it usually depends on my mood but some of the time its the slow maybe sad or just mellow music that inspires me for anything. mostly drawing and other artistic stuff. maybe occasionally a story or poem.

This question seems a little familiar.


umm.... idk maybe any era before the earth was polluted so much... when it was healthier to take a breath outside.

I have four pairs of shoes and i only wear two or three of them more than a few times a year. i have flip flops for summer (i hate wearing shoes anyway so i wear flip flops in summer when i go places because its closer to no shoes than sneakers are) and i have two pairs of "sneakers" which are really just cheap knock offs of converse.


and that fourth pair is just shit stompers for when im going some place muddy or something.