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Choosing Sides?

 Is it choosing sides when I talk to the "enemy" and am still friends with them and the other friend doesn't seem to want anything to do with me or anybody other than her "significant" other? Is it choosing sides when I don't want anything to do with this situation because the whole situation is bullshit? Is it choosing sides if I want to be able to keep both friends, but one friend is controlled by a jackass that doesn't want her to have anything to do with me?

I'm not choosing sides, the side is being chosen for me.... I have no choice at all.

Jul. 24th, 2011

 It's truly heartbreaking to try to help out a friend in need who just doesn't seem to want to be helped. And even more-so to be there for them and to hear them say that they have nothing or nobody at all. Like you try and try and try with all you've got and you are just... not good enough. I'm not good with the advice part of helping a friend in need anyway... so I already feel useless.

I suppose I shouldn't even try... from now on when I try to help out a friend it'll be half-assed. It's not worth putting so much heart into it, sometimes....


 Kind of sucks when you are trying your hardest to help out a friend in need who doesn't even seem to know you're there... I mean they explain everything that is going on and when you tell them that they aren't alone and say "Well who do I have?"... I mean really... ouch.

I'm trying to pull one of my really good friends out of a dark place right now and I'm failing... and if I can't get him above this... I'm going to feel like a shit and a half.

I'm about in tears because I am so useless with this and I just don't want to lose him in any way... at all. 

I'm scared out of my wits for this guy... my buddy is slipping away from me and I don't know what to do...

Fuck Honesty, Honestly.

 It is definitely true that history repeats itself. And when someone asks for your honest opinion on anything and say "Oh I won't get mad." it's a fucking joke. Remember my previous journal entry about my cousin? Well I feel like that same thing is happening AGAIN this time with my best friend whom I have just finally gotten back into my life. Been spending a lot of time together since she broke up with this dickhead who wouldn't allow her to spend time with me because he found me annoying and immature. She had to ask this asshole permission if she ever wanted to get her hair cut.

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Writer's Block: Fall Fashion

What's your favorite trick for freshening up your wardrobe?

TCH! Wearing whatever the hell I want to! I don't believe in wearing certain colors during the different seasons. "Fashion" is ridiculous.
How do you think personal relationships would change if people could read minds?

We would be able to know who is real and who is not. Someone who is an actual friend, and someone who is being your pity friend. It would be a great gift to be able to read minds, but also it would be a great curse. There's a reason why humans can't read minds, I think that reason is the chaos that would ruin the human race...... faster than the human race is already ruining itself.

Writer's Block: And The Winner Is…

Ke$ha, Eminem, Lady Gaga, Usher, Beyonce, Justin Bieber … who do you most want to win an MTV Video Music Award this year?

Hmmmmm NONE! :D
Have you ever been the target of cyber-bullying? What was your reaction?

Yes... kind of. A lot of my art stuff that I post online is usually about my emotions and how I feel. A lot of the stuff that I draw or write gets a little... depressing, I guess. People have harrassed me online for having emotions. I have some videos up on youtube, granted they are crappy and some are depressing (one was a project for school the other was because I was having a very bad week) and I got messages and comments like "You're an emo faggot! Go cut yourself, bitch!" which is one of the worst things I have recieved.

My reactions were some very angry messages back and blocking and trying HARD to get their accounts deleted. Then a little ranting here and there.

Writer's Block: Love is timeless

What is your opinion of relationships where there is a significant age difference between partners?

Hey, if you know you love the person then it shouldn't matter the age. The only problem I have is if a person is, say, 13 or 15 and the other is a psycho child molester. If the person is under age that is a major problem because of the law especially,  but also maybe an early teen's perception of  love verses crush could be WAY off. They could think they love the older person, whereas the older person could be using that to their advantage. There are a lot of ways a relationship with a huge age difference could play out. Really, it depends on the people in the relationship, if they're both true and really love each other, of if the older one just wants a hot boy/girl half their age to have sex with.

Writer's Block: It's allergies ... really!

What was the last thing that made you cry?

I went to the Jaffrey Fireworks Festival in New Hampshire last night and on the way back to the car we were walking through a HUGE crowd of people. I was in a panic and I started crying hysterically.

Needless to say... I do not do crowds very well.